Wednesday, December 31, 2008
First and foremost, HAPPY 2009 to all!!!
I can’t believe it but year 2008 has jus ended (or going to la). It’s just too fast. I still remember dreading on 31st December 2007, on how I had to head back to college and start mugging for A levels (and also prepare for Puyal).
Including all the shit that I went through during 2008, from academics to life to relationships… I can remember everything as if they just happened a minute ago. I don’t know whether they are that very impactful or I’m just being to0 sensitive or more like my brains have to much of empty space that these things just occupy it. Haha…
Honestly, I have to thank GOD for such a beautiful year. Yes. Every day of our lives comes with it’s own ups and downs. That is life. And this year of course did have it’s own balanced share of pros and cons. Like all other years, it has of course, impacted my life – made me learn new things, life skills, understand the world, people and what not!!!
NS life has been of course fun. It hasn’t been long since I started serving the nation, via being a trainee in some island far away, yet in Singapore. Honestly, I am enjoying every single bit there. It is tiring. Yes, no doubt. But the time there spent everyday, thus far, has proven to be something that I can never forget. NS isn’t that tough as many dread. Like what the army tends to do, “NS turns boys into men”.
However, NS hasn’t changed my way of life as much. Haha. Like all other days, even in NS, in that small little bunk I still do have thoughts flowing through that tired brain after all that training. These thoughts would have been blogged if I were to bee home. But since there’s like no internet access in Tekong, at least no for recruits, I cannot blog. Interestingly, Army has decided to give all recruits something called a journal, where we are expected to reflect on everyday’s activities. Apart from that reflection, which is very minimal in my journal, there are a lot of insights that my brain generates which have been penned down. However, due to the lack of time, I don’t seem to be able to note down all my thoughts.
I know I haven’t been contacting anyone lately. I’m not sorry about that. Personally, it is an achievement for me. Try it. It’s hard to live without messaging your loved ones for like 2 to 3 weeks – not even a single “hi”. I mean for me, it wasn’t that hard. To be frank, I had the urge to message people. Cos I used to have this *good/ bad (delete where applicable) habit of messaging people a greeting message randomly. But for these three weeks, I messaged no one. It was kind of fun though. But I know that it’s slightly wrong (note the word SLIGHTLY) that I don’t have contact with them. Even now I think it’s not wrong totally. Haha… Just Ragha being himself again.
Things haven’t been going the way I want to - more like just one issue out of the many issues that I planned on doing. Just one. But then and again, it’s a major one. It seemed to have been working out well. But the ball bounced back, after a VERY LONG TIME. It was because of a simple lie. Something that meant to be a signal for me move on immediately and not look back at it. But the truth, when revealed was of course, pulling me back, deep in just like quick sand. Well, I think love is like quick sand after all. You have to have like some machine to pull you out of it. If not, you just stay there and get “sucked” in, into your death bed.
During my NS days so far, I have been calling home everyday, talking to my parents and siblings. Like what everyone would have guessed, half the phone call would be with my sister. Haha… we just talk, talk and talk. The only reason that I hang up is because I have to do some work or lights out timing is like nearing. Haha… Give the opportunity to talk longer, I would do so (not like I didn’t before… SHHH!!!).
There’s this particular chat with my sister that stayed in my heart, deeply buried. It wasn’t with her only. But with someone else - a conference call. it started out nice, interesting and lively, despite the time (12am plus, midnight). It ended bitter!!! Believe me, it was bitter – more bitter than 7 bittergourds. You can blame me for the bitter ending. It hasn’t ended though, but hopefully it doesn’t surface up tomorrow, because I will be meeting him.
That little chat showed me a lot and of course, made me believe strongly in what I always believed. Never regret your decision!
That’s a piece of small little advice that I can give to all when starting your new year. Seriously, live life like there’s no tomorrow but then never regret what your actions! Quite contradictory eh? Just like Ragha himself!
If anyone asks me to introduce myself, I would simply say, I’m a simple guy living life the way I want. Yet, I stick to this policy that I would, should and shall not regret the decisions or my actions after they are done. Of course, I have regretted a few. That’s before I strongly believed in this principle. So basically, “living life the way you want with no regrets” would be the motto for 2009!
Honestly, 2009 is a special year for me. I have a lot of plans for 2009. Never in my life of 18 years, I have had so MANY plans for a new year. Maybe because when any new year is nearing, I will be worrying about school. But this year, there’s no such worry. Just maybe NS and my A level results that will be out next year, nonetheless, I am ready for the year 2009 with a lot of plans. No resolutions so far. Not that I had any for the past few years!
Once again people.
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
HAVE A BLESSED 2009!!!
¶ 10:49 PM I can’t believe it but year 2008 has jus ended (or going to la). It’s just too fast. I still remember dreading on 31st December 2007, on how I had to head back to college and start mugging for A levels (and also prepare for Puyal).
Including all the shit that I went through during 2008, from academics to life to relationships… I can remember everything as if they just happened a minute ago. I don’t know whether they are that very impactful or I’m just being to0 sensitive or more like my brains have to much of empty space that these things just occupy it. Haha…
Honestly, I have to thank GOD for such a beautiful year. Yes. Every day of our lives comes with it’s own ups and downs. That is life. And this year of course did have it’s own balanced share of pros and cons. Like all other years, it has of course, impacted my life – made me learn new things, life skills, understand the world, people and what not!!!
NS life has been of course fun. It hasn’t been long since I started serving the nation, via being a trainee in some island far away, yet in Singapore. Honestly, I am enjoying every single bit there. It is tiring. Yes, no doubt. But the time there spent everyday, thus far, has proven to be something that I can never forget. NS isn’t that tough as many dread. Like what the army tends to do, “NS turns boys into men”.
However, NS hasn’t changed my way of life as much. Haha. Like all other days, even in NS, in that small little bunk I still do have thoughts flowing through that tired brain after all that training. These thoughts would have been blogged if I were to bee home. But since there’s like no internet access in Tekong, at least no for recruits, I cannot blog. Interestingly, Army has decided to give all recruits something called a journal, where we are expected to reflect on everyday’s activities. Apart from that reflection, which is very minimal in my journal, there are a lot of insights that my brain generates which have been penned down. However, due to the lack of time, I don’t seem to be able to note down all my thoughts.
I know I haven’t been contacting anyone lately. I’m not sorry about that. Personally, it is an achievement for me. Try it. It’s hard to live without messaging your loved ones for like 2 to 3 weeks – not even a single “hi”. I mean for me, it wasn’t that hard. To be frank, I had the urge to message people. Cos I used to have this *good/ bad (delete where applicable) habit of messaging people a greeting message randomly. But for these three weeks, I messaged no one. It was kind of fun though. But I know that it’s slightly wrong (note the word SLIGHTLY) that I don’t have contact with them. Even now I think it’s not wrong totally. Haha… Just Ragha being himself again.
Things haven’t been going the way I want to - more like just one issue out of the many issues that I planned on doing. Just one. But then and again, it’s a major one. It seemed to have been working out well. But the ball bounced back, after a VERY LONG TIME. It was because of a simple lie. Something that meant to be a signal for me move on immediately and not look back at it. But the truth, when revealed was of course, pulling me back, deep in just like quick sand. Well, I think love is like quick sand after all. You have to have like some machine to pull you out of it. If not, you just stay there and get “sucked” in, into your death bed.
During my NS days so far, I have been calling home everyday, talking to my parents and siblings. Like what everyone would have guessed, half the phone call would be with my sister. Haha… we just talk, talk and talk. The only reason that I hang up is because I have to do some work or lights out timing is like nearing. Haha… Give the opportunity to talk longer, I would do so (not like I didn’t before… SHHH!!!).
There’s this particular chat with my sister that stayed in my heart, deeply buried. It wasn’t with her only. But with someone else - a conference call. it started out nice, interesting and lively, despite the time (12am plus, midnight). It ended bitter!!! Believe me, it was bitter – more bitter than 7 bittergourds. You can blame me for the bitter ending. It hasn’t ended though, but hopefully it doesn’t surface up tomorrow, because I will be meeting him.
That little chat showed me a lot and of course, made me believe strongly in what I always believed. Never regret your decision!
That’s a piece of small little advice that I can give to all when starting your new year. Seriously, live life like there’s no tomorrow but then never regret what your actions! Quite contradictory eh? Just like Ragha himself!
If anyone asks me to introduce myself, I would simply say, I’m a simple guy living life the way I want. Yet, I stick to this policy that I would, should and shall not regret the decisions or my actions after they are done. Of course, I have regretted a few. That’s before I strongly believed in this principle. So basically, “living life the way you want with no regrets” would be the motto for 2009!
Honestly, 2009 is a special year for me. I have a lot of plans for 2009. Never in my life of 18 years, I have had so MANY plans for a new year. Maybe because when any new year is nearing, I will be worrying about school. But this year, there’s no such worry. Just maybe NS and my A level results that will be out next year, nonetheless, I am ready for the year 2009 with a lot of plans. No resolutions so far. Not that I had any for the past few years!
Once again people.
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
HAVE A BLESSED 2009!!!
