Saturday, May 2, 2009
Alot of things have been happening around me lately. Whether im not involved, they are just affecting me. Not exactly affecting me, but making me think. And like i alwais say, making Ragha think, is DISASTER!
So yeah. Went to the long awaited Nageswari poojai yesterday. It has been months since i went for it. Actually, one month only. Haha. The poojai was good. But what happened there was not something that i expected. It just put alot of questions in my head to think.
the main question being "Why do we have to meet the people we meet in life?"
Is it my choice that i made friends with those people or is it that GOD made the effort to cause us to be friends?
The people who i have met and have been making me wonder are all those that i met in temple. It makes more sense now for me to think that GOD has a part to play in it. GOD's just bored up there. It's not like she's got UNO cards or Monopoly to play to keep her occupied. All she's got are her creations, her children for her to play with. And so she moves us around in her own created "human chess". So that's why i end up meeting this people.
But then and again, the choice to maintain a friendship with them is my choice. I can't blame GOD. I can only blame myself if i find that the friendship is a bitter one.
A good example that the choice of maintaining a relationship with the people i meet is in my hands would be NavaZ. GOD made us meet. We decided to become close. We created NavaZ. And now we love each other madly. So when i made this choice, i didnt know how far this friendship would go. Now i know it has gone far, into a sibling-ship.
But as for the others... Those bitter relationship. I didnt know how far it will go... And now looking back, i don't think i wanna continue. Haha.
When people grow, they change. Physically and mentally. It's fun to watch someone grow, especially through their teenage years. Super fun. It's during this period of time where you can see them squirming through the hardship or just breezing past through it. And from this, you can roughly make out what kinda future they may lead or tend to lead. But then and again, it might change based on the experience that they went through.
Oh... Anchorberg isn't exactly nice! YUCK. the latter is better though. Haha.
Happie Birthday my Shangs darling and Han Jia Jun, my proud Best friend n to his twin sister too.
If fuck wasn't a bad word, i would be using it like pen ink for an economics A level paper (it's supposed to mean that i would be using it many many times, for those who dun get it).
i'm sick and tired of the 18. im waiting.
Trust begins where death ends,
Ragha
¶ 11:33 PM
So yeah. Went to the long awaited Nageswari poojai yesterday. It has been months since i went for it. Actually, one month only. Haha. The poojai was good. But what happened there was not something that i expected. It just put alot of questions in my head to think.
the main question being "Why do we have to meet the people we meet in life?"
Is it my choice that i made friends with those people or is it that GOD made the effort to cause us to be friends?
The people who i have met and have been making me wonder are all those that i met in temple. It makes more sense now for me to think that GOD has a part to play in it. GOD's just bored up there. It's not like she's got UNO cards or Monopoly to play to keep her occupied. All she's got are her creations, her children for her to play with. And so she moves us around in her own created "human chess". So that's why i end up meeting this people.
But then and again, the choice to maintain a friendship with them is my choice. I can't blame GOD. I can only blame myself if i find that the friendship is a bitter one.
A good example that the choice of maintaining a relationship with the people i meet is in my hands would be NavaZ. GOD made us meet. We decided to become close. We created NavaZ. And now we love each other madly. So when i made this choice, i didnt know how far this friendship would go. Now i know it has gone far, into a sibling-ship.
But as for the others... Those bitter relationship. I didnt know how far it will go... And now looking back, i don't think i wanna continue. Haha.
When people grow, they change. Physically and mentally. It's fun to watch someone grow, especially through their teenage years. Super fun. It's during this period of time where you can see them squirming through the hardship or just breezing past through it. And from this, you can roughly make out what kinda future they may lead or tend to lead. But then and again, it might change based on the experience that they went through.
Oh... Anchorberg isn't exactly nice! YUCK. the latter is better though. Haha.
Happie Birthday my Shangs darling and Han Jia Jun, my proud Best friend n to his twin sister too.
If fuck wasn't a bad word, i would be using it like pen ink for an economics A level paper (it's supposed to mean that i would be using it many many times, for those who dun get it).
i'm sick and tired of the 18. im waiting.
The angel screams in pain.
She's injured.
The devil comes to her rescue.
Can she fall in love?
She does.
Devil moves away.
She's dying.
Would it have been better?
to die injured on the outer?
or to die with a bleeding heart and soul?
She regrets.
Angels don't regret.
She ain't an angel nomore.
She's the devil.
Seeking sweet revenge.
Trust begins where death ends,
Ragha
¶ 11:33 PM
