Friday, May 1, 2009
Met up with a few of my NavaZ darling last sunday before booking in. Was super fun. Super long since we had fun together. Met at RP. Spent quite a few hours there, talking and sharing and eating and 'drinking'. Haha. Wanna see some photos taken, visit "Divine Devil" frenster account (there's a link in my blog by the way).
That sunday outing made me think alot. Cos we had a lot to share, more like the girls had alot to share and i was merely sitting there listening. It was during then that i realised that although NavaZ has never acheived much as a a group, it is during these kinda times that the NavaZ spirit is really brought out and up to its greatest level. Indeed, i'm proud to boast of the existence of Navaz. Sadly, had to cut the outing short, cos i was in a rush back to camp. So coming back to the many things that i thought about after that day's outing.
There are two types of sorrows. One type being those that you have to share and not keep within yourself, which will help you lessen the burden you have in your heart. The other type being those that you cannot share, simply because sharing it just adds on more burden within yourself and keeping silent about it is just the best remedy. My Navaz has people of both kinds. Interesting eh.
I also found out that people who wear contacts lens tend to give it as a reason when they cry, saying that the contact lens are making their eyes a bit uncomfy, that's the reason for their tears. Like hello, i do wear contacts too and i can differentiate between a contacts problem and a heart problem.
I also realised that not everyone is living the best life. They all have problems and some are willing to share it out because they want to let the others know what's going on in their life. Some do not want to share what's going in their life because they are embarassed to do so. Some just don't want people to know about it because they feel that they are passing their burden to others.
Love is all over the air. Whenever you love someone, you tend to wish the best for them. You even go to the extend to sacrifice somethings just for them. But at the same time, like i always say, nothing is permanent in life. So someday, somehow, that person will leave you or you leave the person. Whichever it maybe, knowing that death is the only power that is able to take away your loved ones without your permission, is the best way to lead your life. Just because that person is gone doesn't mean you go along with that person. It just means that you have now a bigger role to play - you play your role and the role your loved one played. I know its pretty much confusing because it's so random!
I just wanna tell this to a particular someone, provided she reads my blog la.
When death gets you two apart, remember that she's gone for good. Be it now or later, someday she will be gone. You can't expect her to stay with you forever, that's unfair to her. Deep down i wish that she wouldnt be gone too. But, one thing for sure, whichever day she is gone, she knows that she is leaving her responsibilties to a responsible girl. When she is gone, you have many responsibilties to take over - you know it. Be prepared, whether now or later, someday she has to go and you will have to face it! It's not whether she was a good person or how much she helped people. Her death would have been written long before she was born and it has to happen the way its written. Prayers do help, but death cannot be changed. everyone has to go one day or another. GOD is always with her. Someday she'll be GOD herself. Trust me, it's not nearing. Her time will come, not now but far later...
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Personally, i feel that i have settled the dangling issues with my ex girlfriend. Well, it's almost two years plus since we broke and till saturday, i felt that there were issues that were left dangling - bascially we hadn't put a fullstop to that long relationship we had. That's what i personally felt. I dunno about her la. But after that week's msging and some small reflection and some msging back, i think we have finally, more like i have finally put a firm fullstop to that relationship. I know for sure that this fullstop will strengthen the friendship bond that we currently have.
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It's late. Gotta go sleep. Am tired, super duper tired after the week's long outfield training. Nites.
Where smiles cry,
Risk Ranger RaghaBoi ¶ 12:36 AM
That sunday outing made me think alot. Cos we had a lot to share, more like the girls had alot to share and i was merely sitting there listening. It was during then that i realised that although NavaZ has never acheived much as a a group, it is during these kinda times that the NavaZ spirit is really brought out and up to its greatest level. Indeed, i'm proud to boast of the existence of Navaz. Sadly, had to cut the outing short, cos i was in a rush back to camp. So coming back to the many things that i thought about after that day's outing.
There are two types of sorrows. One type being those that you have to share and not keep within yourself, which will help you lessen the burden you have in your heart. The other type being those that you cannot share, simply because sharing it just adds on more burden within yourself and keeping silent about it is just the best remedy. My Navaz has people of both kinds. Interesting eh.
I also found out that people who wear contacts lens tend to give it as a reason when they cry, saying that the contact lens are making their eyes a bit uncomfy, that's the reason for their tears. Like hello, i do wear contacts too and i can differentiate between a contacts problem and a heart problem.
I also realised that not everyone is living the best life. They all have problems and some are willing to share it out because they want to let the others know what's going on in their life. Some do not want to share what's going in their life because they are embarassed to do so. Some just don't want people to know about it because they feel that they are passing their burden to others.
Love is all over the air. Whenever you love someone, you tend to wish the best for them. You even go to the extend to sacrifice somethings just for them. But at the same time, like i always say, nothing is permanent in life. So someday, somehow, that person will leave you or you leave the person. Whichever it maybe, knowing that death is the only power that is able to take away your loved ones without your permission, is the best way to lead your life. Just because that person is gone doesn't mean you go along with that person. It just means that you have now a bigger role to play - you play your role and the role your loved one played. I know its pretty much confusing because it's so random!
I just wanna tell this to a particular someone, provided she reads my blog la.
When death gets you two apart, remember that she's gone for good. Be it now or later, someday she will be gone. You can't expect her to stay with you forever, that's unfair to her. Deep down i wish that she wouldnt be gone too. But, one thing for sure, whichever day she is gone, she knows that she is leaving her responsibilties to a responsible girl. When she is gone, you have many responsibilties to take over - you know it. Be prepared, whether now or later, someday she has to go and you will have to face it! It's not whether she was a good person or how much she helped people. Her death would have been written long before she was born and it has to happen the way its written. Prayers do help, but death cannot be changed. everyone has to go one day or another. GOD is always with her. Someday she'll be GOD herself. Trust me, it's not nearing. Her time will come, not now but far later...
:::::::
Personally, i feel that i have settled the dangling issues with my ex girlfriend. Well, it's almost two years plus since we broke and till saturday, i felt that there were issues that were left dangling - bascially we hadn't put a fullstop to that long relationship we had. That's what i personally felt. I dunno about her la. But after that week's msging and some small reflection and some msging back, i think we have finally, more like i have finally put a firm fullstop to that relationship. I know for sure that this fullstop will strengthen the friendship bond that we currently have.
:::::::::::
It's late. Gotta go sleep. Am tired, super duper tired after the week's long outfield training. Nites.
18 words that cannot be said.
I wanna scream out loud.
Right into your ears.
You aren't deaf.
Stop acting like you are.
It hurts to see you hurt,
but that's the only way
i can remain un-hurt.
Where smiles cry,
Risk Ranger RaghaBoi ¶ 12:36 AM
