Let me be more precise. Does the saying "Old is Gold" fit the situation whereby one has a different character from what he used to have - basically meaning that he had changed character (whether to the bad or to the good isn't the issue here)???
I suddenly got this doubt when i was browsing thru Friendster, looking thru the photos of a friend of mine.One of the captions mentioned "The old (His name)". And i felt that i preferred the old person to the new one. Haha. I felt that the old person was more of gem than the new one - the new one being someone i despise now.
So how far is it true to say that a change in someone's character may not after all be for the better -that is to say, that the old is the better? It's rather usual nowadays to actually have some thoughts of changing your character. You might personally feel that your character now isn't the best for you to survive with and you are willing to change. However, does the thought of how other people may react to your change of character, ever, ever at all pop in your mind?
Personally, there have been many times where i think that a change in character is necessary. Contrary to this thought, something tells me that the change is something that i want, more than a necessity - it's just another risk that i'm taking in life, not exaclty knowing where i would end up. This change can have dramatic effect in one's life. However much being a risk taker myself, i wouldn't want to take this particular risk of a change in character because, i know that the effects are not just gonna affect me, but those around me. Considering the fact that i would rather keep people around me happy than take the risk, i would rather choose to be the 'old person' than to be the 'changed NEW Ragha'.
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So, i turned 19. Hadn't been exactly a good start. But i'm ready for more to come! Cheers. ¶ 7:23 PM 0 Comments
Had NavaZ dance practice in the morning and went for Dance Arena 2009 in the evening.
Three reasons why i went for Dance Arena 2009:
- It was held at Chong Pang CC, kinda near to where i live.
- I have been going for Dance Arena for the past two years and it has been interesting thus far.
- The most important reason - Transitionz was taking part.
Transitionz ithe group that my dear sister Vitz is in. Actually, she is the leader of that group, if i'm not wrong. And many of the people in that group are actually my friends too - gotta know them thru Vitz. So decided to go down to support them.
First let me congratulate Transitionz on their superb performance. I'm not saying it was super because of any biased view or anything, but honestly, it was awesome. Transitionz was one of the groups that, i personally felt, was outstanding from the others. I was typing down the names of some of the groups that actually captured my attention, but sadly, i deleted the SMS.
Here are some of the names that i remember (pls do pardon me if there is any spelling errors):
- Aarthis
- Everlasting
- Dgenerations
- RSR
- "the all girls group that wore red costume and had the concept of natural disasters"
- "the all girls group that wore blue"
- "the all girls group that had the concept of a love (the 'guy' was wearing a gold costume)
Some of these groups had good choreography, good speed, good concept and good co-ordination. The "all girls group that had the concept of love" had a good concept and their choreography was well done, especially the emotions. The "all girls group that wore red costume and had the concept of natural disasters" had speed and beautiful coordination.
Now coming to Transitionz. I used to attend their dance practices, the very beginning ones. The choreography was very skimpy and it seemed like that had to do more to actually make it far. But that was during the very first dance practice. On saturday when i saw the final piece put together by them, GOSH, I was sure shocked!!! Their dance was simple splendid!!! The group as a whole, had good coordination. Their steps were very well defined and i couldn't spot any mistake. Although, the girls and the guys did different steps, it didn't seem messy at all, unlike some groups. I liked their concept too - EGO. And it was portrayed very well - as in you can see it there itself and there was no need for much inference.
Honestly, i was paying more attention to the girls than the guys. Haha. Vitz was just awesome. She had the attitude in the dance and it was depicted perfectly well. Brinjal, whom i used to tease alot, was simply super. I always knew that Shalini was a great dancer and she proved it once again. The other girl (sorry i don't know her name) was great too. The girls had a very good synchronisation within themselves. The guys on the other hand made the dance impactful, especially Nash. Ameen and his 'worm' - WOAH, it was absolutely awesome. Although the guys, seemed to be over-towering the girls because of their size (except for Ameen), the girls did a great job in making the dance balanced. And i just dunno how, but the costumes did play a part in carrying the dance out to the audience. As much as the costume was simple, just a mixture of black and white, it gave a greater impact to their steps.
Overall, Transitionz captured my heart. Hats off to them! They did a mind-blowing performance - a performance that i'm pretty sure, would have captured the attention of the judges. Seriously, their dance was something unique, compared to the 'same old dance' that most of the other groups did. Their hardwork and team effort will, in no doubt, be paid off.
I wish them all the best for their Finals!!! I'm very sure that they will come up with another extremely splendid dance!!! Rock On TRANSITIONZ!!! :)
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Firstly, i realised that i have lost touched with Tamil. Coincidentally, i was just 'msn-ing' Nanthu this. Haha. Yeah. I miss those days that i used to have assignments which made me go online and search about tamil poetry and poets (note: i only miss the lessons, not the tutor.). Not forgetting how hard i tried to remember "thirukkural" to use them in essays, as well as follow some in my life journey. Ask me one now and i am pretty sure i can't even say any. That's how distant i am from tamil language. I used to love that language. That was one of the reasons why i actually took Tamil Langauge and Literature in JC. Even though, i initially wanted to drop it cos i was the only student. But then my passion for the language made me stay on and also prove to 'some' people that i can get my A grade for A levels without their help! Haha. I loved the literature part of the JC syllabus. Made me do alot of research about tamil language and people who got famous because of the language. Not forgettting the power of the langauge itself. It's exceptionally nice when you actually study a language, all the more when you feel that the language is yours.
I also wanna take up courses. Any course. Because i'm very sure that since the time i got enlisted to NS, my brain has stopped functioning the way they used to when i was in JC. It does function but not even a quarter of what it used to do 6 months back. I mean this is a good time indeed to actually spend the weekends wisely, doing something that is useful. Of course, all these while, i have been spending my weekends meeting up with friends and loved ones. Not that i'm saying that it isn't good. I do enjoy my time with those people who i meet, ESPECIALLY my NAVAZ. Haha. I can actually open a website for NavaZ - to talk about all the fun we have and to upload all the photos that we take. K coming back... So, during this two years of serving the nation, i guess i shouldn't let it go to a waste giving NS as a reason.
Oh. Oh. I have to talk about this. I really don't understand people who live a double life. Like why? Until now i don't see the necessity. I know alot of people who actually live such a life, or is it considered lives? They just are different to some and different to others and what's amzing is that, they can actually manage both lives. To some extent, you can praise them for such management skils but at the same time, it isn't something good exactly to be praised for. It's either you be this way or be that way, not both! And it's even harder for people who know that you lead a double life and they cannot actually say it out loud. Simply said, if i know someone who leads a double life, i cannot possibly tell it out to my other friends. The worst part being he/she and I have common friends. It would be so hard to actually make sure that I don't blurt out anything about the other side of his/her life!
Secret being a secret, but you leading a double life isn't exactly a secret. It's pure cheating and betrayal. Right? You are actually cheating those around you into believing that you are this kinda person. And on the other hand you are portraying yourself as another person to other people. This isn't a problem of split personality, like in the tamil movie Anniyan, although the concept of split personality was overdone to a large extent. Split personality, if i'm not wrong is like some disorder and the person isn't exactly sure that he is having such a disease/disorder. But leading a double life - the person is perfectly aware that he is actually living two lives and gains pleasure in doing so. Pardon me if i'm generalising too much when i say that these people gain pleasure living double lives. But that's what i have observed from the many who do that.
On the contrary, i know of some who have realised that they are leading such a disgusting life and are making an attempt to move a way from either one of the lives that they live. Trust me. It isn't easy for them. It's like having to kill a character in a story because you do not exactly know what to do with it. But that's a character in a story - that character doesn't exist. But this is you, human, real. You can't possibly kill yourself and expect to revive yourself as the other person. You cannot possibly totally change you identity into the other because people around you will notice the change or even the similarities.
All in all, the bottom line is, someday, the world (aiya, just exaggerating the fact that people around you) will come to know that you actually have been leading a double life. You cannot possbily hide away that fact. If you move away from that double life the moment you realise it, then maybe you are saved from the criticism from people. But the more you play with the lives of other using your two identities, the more you will have to regret later!
Adiyoz peeps.
Where the ends of a circle don't meet,
Ragha - the Random ¶ 6:54 PM 0 Comments
"When you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it."
I don't know whether these are the exact words, but it's an extract from the book "The Alchemist". I dunno how far this is true. But for some reason i believe in it. And have many experiences to back it up.
At the same time, what if that something you want is not something that is gonna benefit you at all? For example, you want to end your life because you are super depressed. Is the universe gonna help you in achieving it?
In the end, afterall, it is you who would have to make the decision of what you want? It's you who decides whether you want it? How much you want it? It is of course not an easy decision at all. If you notice, the longer u take and the harder you think to decide, the bigger the turn/the greater the impact the decision has on your life.
Sometimes, things just don't seem to happen the way we want them to. Is it the doing of the universe? But why would the universe do something that's against our desire? To make us suffer?
Or is there a reason behind the each and every happening that occurs in our life? We may tend not to recognise these reasonings. But somewhere down the road, something will tell us that this particular event has some link to what you are going through now. Not many of us know that and sometimes we just tend to think "What has to happen has to happen". We leave that saying dangling in mid-air, not bothering to continue it - "What has to happen has to happen and they happen for a reason and the reason is something that supposedly brings benefits to us.". So now u see the link for all that suffering you go through at someday of your life?
I used to think "What has to happen has to happen". But i came to understand that what happens is because of a single decision we take (decision). That decision we take is because we have a reason for taking it. However, if that decision doesn't seem to bring benefit for us (failure) but just plain sorrow, that whole decision and failure 'process' (if that's the right word) is the "what has to happen" part of life.
I know it's pretty much confusing. Damn confusing. But, that's where the truth lies. I mean, sometimes things just aren't read on the surface level. You have to read in between the lines. And as much as it's not easy to do that, that's the amount of enjoyment/fulfillment you get at the end of the process of reading in between the lines. Life has it's own codes. It's up to us - how fast we want to decipher it or how much of it we want to decipher and how much of it we choose to ignore.
I just dunno why. I just have gotta say this. I know that i won't around forever. But for that period of time that i'm around, i prefer to be someone recognised as a joker, motivater, entertainer, educator and most importantly, BROTHER (interestingly, it ends with a '-er- too).
Where the past becomes the future,
