Tuesday, February 16, 2010
RANDOM THOUGHTS
27th November. An important date that follows after 1st November. Just this two important dates that i hold on to dearly and tightly. They bring in those happy memories that will last me a lifetime. Memories that i will never experience before because the people who are involved will never be back with me again. Yes, that hurts. But the memories cover them all up, making me smile :)
People whom i treasure will always remain deep in my heart. And this does not necessarily mean that i will shower you with love always. There have been times where there were problems. I never bothered to solve them. Why? My fear. That's a total different issue. How do expect me to be the same after all that happen - this is the only simplest way i can put it forth to u. I knowyou need me. My mere presence makes a difference in your life. Yeah, it used to be that way. And even now, i know, but that's what i do not want. But that's not how things work you know. I do keep memories, really "store" them in my heart. So well, you do not expect me to forget this that easily, do you???
So, the second one. And i'm afraid that will be the last. You can say it was the second. She knows it too. And that's why that decision. And here is my decision, "sorry, but no more!". I'm sorry if that was an impactful few days. It wasn't meant to be that way. It was supposed to be forever, but since you decided against it... I'm in no position to say "no". Not like things are going to work out, cos im not gona try. So yeah, Sorry again. :)
That's the scene i never wanna see again. Never saw one. But every resemblance of it makes me wanna scream out loud. Neither's fault. It never did happen that day. It happens every other day. I get to see it, but i choose not to! It only reminds me of you. And imagine going thru that everyday!!!
Something that i don't want - that's what i say sometimes. That's alright - that's what i say sometimes. Why? That's the question. Just another undecisive me, who circums to temptation! It's now or never, i tell myself, but it seems like its never gona be now! So is it a never? That's the question. So is the question "why" or "whether"??? See, a confused soul just confusing others! :)
Just remember my existence.
Cos that's what i want.
Don't think of what's gona happen
after im gone.
Don't waste your tears
when i'm gone.
Save it for the troubles
you will face later on.
Sinking float,
Ragha
¶ 12:45 AM 
