Sunday, February 28, 2010
Where do i begin???
Have been thru alot of thinking, for like the past few hours. Trust me, just hours. It's not proportionate to the amount of thoughts that have ran thru my head!
Interestingly, im not yet stressed! haha :) Yay.!
So, yeah. Have taken this innocent decision, AGAIN.
Turning to the burning path. Why the burning path? For me to know, for u to find out!
Honestly, i think its time that i broke the silence. I have been quiet for too long. I know that im not the perfect person. Have been making alot of silly mistakes quite recently. But do i look like i care, that it would affect my decision? NO. Hell NO!!!
I know it would be an insult/embarrassment. But well, I'm ready to face it. If i have to live thru it, yeah, im okay. I would rather go thru that than be stuck with the simple, suggestively screwed life, that i have no control of now. Why? Mistakes again!
So, when im not in control of the life that i live, is it a life worth living? Of course lah, duh! NO!
So when the decision is made, does that change alot of things? Yesh, duh. Of course!
Prepared? Not exactly la. But well. It's a decision, filled with innocence!
Like i alwais say. Life alwais gives u two choices. U choose either one and never regret!
Regret is the biggest killer. It's the best way to commit suicide. Haha.
I know it is so unlike me to actually blog about things that happen in my life. But well, to all those frequent visitors, whom i heck whether u read or don't read my blog, it is just to say that i cant be bothered about what you think. Cos in the end the decision is mine.
Life is alwais never about others. Cos in the end, it's ur life. And you live it.
40 years down the road, you wouldnt wanna blame sumone for who you are now. Cos that same someone will say " i told u, but it was ur own choice."...
Ready to face that? then go ahead living for others!
It just tells me again and again, trust urself when u dun wanan trust sumone. when u cannot trust urself, then it's a life unworthy of living. Believing and trusting - two different issues, when looked at from the same perspective.
So.. returning to where it all began. again. never to return to where it ended!
Ragha :) ¶ 10:46 PM
Have been thru alot of thinking, for like the past few hours. Trust me, just hours. It's not proportionate to the amount of thoughts that have ran thru my head!
Interestingly, im not yet stressed! haha :) Yay.!
So, yeah. Have taken this innocent decision, AGAIN.
Turning to the burning path. Why the burning path? For me to know, for u to find out!
Honestly, i think its time that i broke the silence. I have been quiet for too long. I know that im not the perfect person. Have been making alot of silly mistakes quite recently. But do i look like i care, that it would affect my decision? NO. Hell NO!!!
I know it would be an insult/embarrassment. But well, I'm ready to face it. If i have to live thru it, yeah, im okay. I would rather go thru that than be stuck with the simple, suggestively screwed life, that i have no control of now. Why? Mistakes again!
So, when im not in control of the life that i live, is it a life worth living? Of course lah, duh! NO!
So when the decision is made, does that change alot of things? Yesh, duh. Of course!
Prepared? Not exactly la. But well. It's a decision, filled with innocence!
Like i alwais say. Life alwais gives u two choices. U choose either one and never regret!
Regret is the biggest killer. It's the best way to commit suicide. Haha.
I know it is so unlike me to actually blog about things that happen in my life. But well, to all those frequent visitors, whom i heck whether u read or don't read my blog, it is just to say that i cant be bothered about what you think. Cos in the end the decision is mine.
Life is alwais never about others. Cos in the end, it's ur life. And you live it.
40 years down the road, you wouldnt wanna blame sumone for who you are now. Cos that same someone will say " i told u, but it was ur own choice."...
Ready to face that? then go ahead living for others!
It just tells me again and again, trust urself when u dun wanan trust sumone. when u cannot trust urself, then it's a life unworthy of living. Believing and trusting - two different issues, when looked at from the same perspective.
So.. returning to where it all began. again. never to return to where it ended!
My smile will always be the same.
But behind the smile,
learn to read the difference.
Cos there's more to just than smiles.
Smile smile all the way.
Cos that's the natural me.
Try burning that smile.
Cos that's the path,
that the smile has brought me to.
The burning path.
Innocently decided,Ragha :) ¶ 10:46 PM
