Innocent Decision
Sunday, January 31, 2010
 
Went to catch the movie "Tooth Fairy" with this new found brother of mine, Ryan. Had a great time with him. :)

Great moive. A movie with a deep conecpt, in comparison with it's simple title.
All about believing. It's just this two words that has been racing thru my mind since the time i caught that movie. "What if?".

This is the question The Rock (Dwayne Johnson as Thompson) will be asked by his girlfriend, when a bad day causes him to flare up at his girlfriend and her kids. His anger demolished the kid's dream of becoming a young rock star - a dream that he began to believe in because Thompson will encourage him to do so. And now, when Thompson says that he cannot become one, the kid is badly affected, depressed - smashed his guitar and walks away. The girlfriend asks what is wrong with him and he replies that he had a bad day. And she slams him back saying that it is not the bad day that made him say that. It's just him, not being able to ask "what if?".

Which is so true! Dwayne will be portrayed as someone who doesn't believe. Someone who sees things in a pessimistic perspective! And so, when he becomes the tooth fairy, he realises that it is all in believing! He begans to live his dream, breaks his own record, supports his son to live his dream...

Well, all these were achieved with his fairy powers! haha. something we normal human don't have! But the moral of the story still applies! Believe! and that's what's going to bring you where u wanna be!
And there's another saying that i would like to accompany with it - "It's not whether u win or lose, it's how u play the game".

Am i addicted to Panadol?

Simplistic Sinner,
RaghaBoi
 
Saturday, January 30, 2010
 
"Was it Thaipusam today?", I kept asking myself.
Honestly, it didn't seem like it nor feel like it.
I was at Sri Perumal temple from 10am to 4pm, and i can be sure that i saw less than 50 Kavadis.
That's just a rough gauge la. But i expected to see the usual number of Kavadis that i saw last year and the pervious one as well.
The temple was EMPTY, trust me, compared to previous years, this is considered empty!
The road, was empty! I mean, it was as crowded as usual, where Kavadis will cause a "Kavadi Jam". The flow was rather smooth, not many pauses and Kavadis didn't have to wait much!

Is it because there were really lesser Kavadis or people carried earlier or people carried after i left temple heading home? Can't be the last option, cause the temple said that they would be closing ther entrance doors at 630pm! Which wasn't long from the time i left the temple, or left tekka!

I don't know. It just didn't seem like Thaipusam today! SobZ...

I did enjoy myself though. Seeing all the Kavadis. Most of it were the same as previous years. I could just look at the kavadi and tell whose it was. Or look at the group standing there and know who was going to carry the Kavadi...

Met a lot of people. People who i wanted to meet after so long - Valli ka, Dappa ka.
People who i didn't wanna meet - many will know the name!
People whol i don't rememeber knwoing at all. Trust me, it only happens to me. I end up smiling and saying hi and also having a convo with them, not knowing them, and how they know me!!!

Oh.. Did i mention! Some idiot stole my slipper. For God's sake, its only $7.90. And this only happens to me! During theemithi, during any major event in temple, some guy just manages to take note of my super cheap slipper and takes it away, before i can return home safely with it!
I need to start investing on slippers already. "Ragha Slippers" - does that sound nice? NAH!!!

I can hear GOD telling me to stop SMSing too much! haha. and to stop being nice to everyone. haha. And stop showing my teeth too much when i smile. :)

Ridiculous Reward,
Ragha
 
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
 
The question is, "Is This What I Want?"

It was repetitive. Running through his head since the time he began SMSing. Even when he was busy with work. Thank GOD he was not distracted.

He was really wondering. That question never popped up before. He never expected it to do so. He was so sure about what he wanted. He was so sure that that's where he was heading to and that he will accomplish that no matter what happens.

He was silent, when that thought came. He was shocked. Needless to say, hurt. Was he living a fake life - the life that he used to hate so much and feel disgusted about?

And he concludes - It's just HIM, and HIMSELF. All about him.
So why care???

Smile all you want
cos it won't be long
cry all you want
cos it won't be long
love all you want
cos it won't be long
but what you get in return
remains for long
pretty long -
hurt, deep hurt,
deeper than the oceans
mankind can ever go,
high, extremely high,
higher than the moutains
mankind has ever scaled.
Innocently decided,
Ragha
 
Monday, January 11, 2010
 
And so...

Was reading Vit blog. About her review on the movie "Fashion". I ain't sure whether it is the title or the way she putsher thoughts across, but somehow, i really want to watch that movie. It has t be Vitz la. Her way of blogging was one of the reasons why i started blogging. Just so captivating! Long though, but really interesting. I spent hours, practically three hours, reading her New Year post! God! Had a headache and eye-ache after that.

So well, me and fashion - just like winter and summer. People who know me will know that i ain't exactly a fashion disaster, but at the same time, i couldn't be bothered less about fashion. Just a simply me is the image i portray. Trying out new style in dressing, hairdo, shoes, etc - not my cup of tea. Sadly.! :(

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Recently, a colleague of mine told me straight in the face that if i do not like someone, i just show it so obviously. Well, i disagreed with that totally.
I immediately sent out a msg asking:

What would you do if u dislike someone,
A. Tell that person straight on the face.
B. Make sure you show it through your actions.
C. Be nice and move away from him/her quietly.
D. Try to be nice and be friends with him.

Interestingly, i had a variety of answers. The maximum answers were D. How nice people are eh! Haha. Two said B. Which is what i would do if i really hated that person. But my personal option would be A. C, in my opinion, is like being a coward or being ingenuine. :)

376 days of 2009. Yes. I have not moved on from it. I hope to do so by end Jan. 2010 seems so far, although it has been 11 days since it begun. People have moved on though.

Calm Confusion,

Ragha :)

Utha Utha Utha Ya
Yatha Yatha Yatha OO
Uthaya
Yatha-OO
OOOOOOOOO
Uthaya!
 
Sunday, January 3, 2010
 
Is it just me or is everyone around me just changing?
I don't know. Honestly, i'm lost.

I was telling Vitz that i haven't moved on to 2010. Which is so true. I have been/am living 2009 for the past three days. That makes it 368 days of 2009!

I was prepared for 2010. But now that it has begun, i know that i'm not.
Issues that have not been solved did not seem to end. They decided to follow me to a new beginning. So when something continues, it isn't exactly a new beginning, is it?

I'm trying to solve these issues. Well, i know i can do it fast. Maybe a week, or two.
But the thing is the memories. I also want to leave those memories behind, with the long gone (for ALL) 2009. But i doubt so. It will follow me awhile at least :(

Haha. 2010 didnt start of the way i wanted it to.
But hey, who's the pilot of my life? Me or the people around me?
Duh, ME. So who handles the steering. ME! So yeah. :)
I will get back right on track sometime soon. Not long!

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Change. There has this saying going on around, change is the only constant. For those who don't understand, it just means that the only thing that doesn't change is change itself.

Look around u. Is anything ever the same? The leaves, they move. The TV, channels change. The fan, it spins. Everything!

So if change is the only constant, why do people (even ME) get surprised with change? Is it because they don't expect the change? Which is rather stupid because, once again, change is the only constant? Or is it that they already expected a change, but the changed that occured, wasn't the way they expected it to be? Then again, the change itself is a change, so shouldn't we be prepared that the change will change, since change is the only constant?

Well, looking at a different perspective. People aren't used to changes yet because life is ever changing. It's just the rate at this change. For example, your breathing should not be changing so differently, like if it's 18 per minute now, in the next five seconds, there shouldn't be much of change. However, the number of times the your phone rings, you do not know when it is going to ring next. It could be ringing once in two minutes. Or it could be ringing once in an hour.

So, its safe to say that people are TOO accustomed to changes that they become too comfortable with any changes that occur around them, that sometimes when changes do not occur as and when they want it to, it becomes a setback to them. If the change occurs TOO fast, it's understandble why people panick. But if the change happens TOO slow, then maybe it can become a problem because we should be prepared, but somehow, we become too complacent.

Change change change. Has there ever been a person who has never changed his way of living? I dunno. Cos im not planning to be one! Cos i found out that the only where people can move on from where they are, is to accept changes annd expect more changes. So when u accept changes, don't u change as well?

Moral of the 'story' is: Don't be rigid. U ain't a metal. You are HUMAN :)

Unable to leave 2009,
RaghaBoi
 
Friday, January 1, 2010
 
And so begins 2010. :)

First and foremost, Happie New Year to one and all :)

Wanted to do a reflection-blog about 2009, before the year ended. Sadly, didn't find the time to do so. Sobz :(

2010, without any doubt, was a blast start off. Hoping to have more fun and adventure in 2010. With lessons learnt from the past year, hopefully i don't repeat the same mistakes again and lead a better life.

Isn't that what everyone wants, a better life? Lets all make it happen - work together for a better future and life.

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Let me backtrack to 2009, to highlight a few issues that are important.

Love. Apparently, my ex relationship isn't at all ended. Not saying that there's still a problem. Just that the other half seems to be stagnant. I won't blame her for not being able to move on. But well... It's been quite a while - and she doesn't seem to be able to move on. I'm rather surprised cos she seemed like she was all ready for a life without the past affecting her. Well, NO!!! I was wrong. I don't know whether she has something planned for the new year with regards to "us". Something tells me she has. Which is good. Hopefully, she succeeds. :)

Oh... I stayed up late tonight, just to watch "Unnale Unnale". It's a movie so close to heart. I like the storyline, especially the ending. It's a good movie for lovers to watch!

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Friendship. As expected, i made ALOT of new friends in 2009. Old friends did remain, although some decided to move off. Many problems surfaced with this many people.

NavaZ. First time in three years, there was no NavaZ gathering. And well, noone seemed to disturbed about it. Which is good, just to a smalle extent. Oh, for your info, NavaZ may seem inactive, but it still exist! :) Whether or not, we meet up or have minor problems here and there, there will be no point where NavaZ will cease to exist :)

I have to admit that towards the end of the year, i wasn't as emotionally strong as i did at the beginning of 2009. I managed to pull thru though. Honestly, i was not at all prepared to face 2010. I wanted a new beginning in 2o10, but with so many issues unattended to, 2010 seems like a continuation of 2009, rather than a new beginning. Somehow, i know that sometime soon, 'end' will find its way to me and i can have a new beginning :)

Also, i have to admit that i'm addicted to COFFEE :)

Sometime in Dec, i beging sending many of those people in my contact lists, morning greeting msges. Despite the time being early, many people feedback to me that they appreciate those msges and it makes their day bright. Some even say they look forward to my msges everyday, that when i don't send one, they panick. Haha. I have decided to make an effort to send such msges everyday, but that depends on my brain/mind, because all those msges i sent are created by me - random thoughts that appear in my head when i sit in my office, waiting for work to start :) So fret not, you should be receiving a greeting msg everyday :)

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I spent my first day of 2010 reading this story about this girl named Oh Siew May. Someone with cerebral palsy - how she fought her way thru the torments of life and became someone who lived her dream. What shocked me was that she had even scaled a Mount Kinnabalu. That's an achievement! Interestingly, she had a younger sister who was retarded and her brother was not of much help, rather a burden. I have yet to read the whole story.

There's this particular thing that she says with i used to tell people. Everything in life has a choice. Never blame fate for whatever that happens in life, because whatever happens is your choice. The path you chose to take is your choice, whatever happens in that path is fate. If you had chosen the other path, the experiences you encounter there would surely be different.

Another thing that i totally agree with her is the fear of the judgement that people may pass.We tend to not accomplish a lot of things in life cos of this fear. We worry that people might mock us, laugh at us. Siew May was laughed at, she was nicked as an alien, cos of the way she looked and spoke. She had cried to herself many times, questioning GOD whether this is the life she had asked for.

Of course, she did not clear all the obstacles on her own. She had the support of her friends, whom she is very much grateful too. She says that without those friends, she would not be where she is today.

Friends are like studies/lecture. They can only educate you in certain ways. In the end, when you take the examination, you are all alone. Friends teach you thru experience; enemies too. Honestly speaking, enemies teach you more than friends. Because humans tend to learn and remember things when put across in a bitter way :)

My mum always advices (in tamil, and it somewhat rhymes that way) : When someone close to you scolds you, it's an advice. When a stranger scolds you, it's an insult.
Most of the time, we tend to start thinking and acting when we get insulted. We take for granted the lovely advice we receive from people we love.

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As for my love life... I know that i said that love is bullshit. In 2010, i have decided to be more open towards love. Afterall, if peopel say that the world revolves around love, there should be a lil sign of existence of love. So i have decided to go all out in search for the existence iof love. Do not take me wrong here - i'm not finding a relationship, but just merely the existence of love! :)

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Should be starting to actively blog again pretty soon. Blog has been dead quite a while since my 19th Birthday :)

Till then,
Cheers,
Happie '10 :)
 

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